One way to realise you are helpless...

Well last night and today have really driven home how helpless we are... I think its also driven home how lucky we are in terms of the people around us too. Nina fell from a tree yesterday evening and thought she may have hurt her broken arm. We didnt know what to do and it was swollen, so we suggested she wait until morning and check it out again then. We were kind of scared because Sandy needed a blood test first thing in the morning and we were expecting our weekly home help then too. I was supposed to be having meeting for my dissertation. We both understood that she must come first, but it all seems so hard. We hoped it would all be gone in the morning.

At 7 this morning I looked at it again. No matter how often I looked I knew she needed to see the Doctor. I phoned my parents and they told me not to worry, they would help, which was what I hoped to hear. I was really grateful they said that though and that they were so reassuring. At 8 I called the doctor. Chris said he would take us there, which was lovely because it would make him late for work. By 8.30 we had a referral for an x-ray and Sandy was back at home. Chris dropped Nina home with Sandy while I went to work and grabbed what was needed to work from home. Chris then drove me home, Nina and Sandy walked to her x-ray while I waited for our home help. Once she had been x-rayed, they took it to the doctor who referred her to a specialist after plastering it. They dont know if it's broken again or not.

I found her x-rays and called Mum and Dad. They will collect us this afternoon for her meeting with the psychologist and then Chris will collect us on his way home from work. Dad will grab me from Monash tomorrow and take Nina, me and Mum to the specialist at 4.45 pm (eeww peak hour). My parents are so good to us. They always tell us not to worry and that they will take care of things. We are so very lucky to have them.

We get there... we know we do... but it costs. No study for Sandy today, no study for me. I wonder what it will all mean and I know he does too. The main thing is that Nina will get well and that people love us enough to help us and thats what I need to focus on...

I hope the psychologist can help. I will see him next week. I know I feel like crying we are so helpless. The smallest thing is so impossible for us. I imagine Sandy feels the same. We have to remember to be easy on each other... we are all in this together... but at least we are together.